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I wait for the Lord, he says, my soul waits No smart answers, no trite phrases, no patronizing

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advice, no exhortations to pull yourself together, just a simple decision and a steady commitment

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to wait.

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Welcome to Open the Bible with Pastor Colin Smith. I’m David Pick and Colin today we’re

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talking about a subject many people really don’t like, no one likes to wait.

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What’s your favourite place to wait? I mean waiting in line at the grocery store?

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Oh, that’s terrible.

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Waiting on a train?

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I hate that! I wanna wait at a nice coffee shop with good Wi-fi.

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You know it doesn’t grab us as a wonderful thing to do, waiting. I mean it seems like

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the most useless redundant waste of time and yet the Bible time and again talks about waiting

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on God. I think that’s one of the hardest things for us to understand in our culture.

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We’re in the culture of rush, the next thing get onto it, you know? What does it mean for

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me to wait on the Lord? Well, we’re gonna find out today in the Psalms that when I find

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myself in a dark place in life, that’s the most important thing for me to do. And if

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you are in a place of real darkness right now, then knowing what it means to wait on

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the Lord is perhaps the single most important thing for you to grasp right now. So I’m so

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glad the scripture speaks to us so clearly about it.

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It does. So, let’s not wait any longer. We’re in Psalm 130, continuing our message. Trusting

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in the darkness. Here’s Colin.

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In your Bible and you will discover men and women of faith who walked through the dark

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night of the soul and they did not hide the pain under a pile of spiritual phrases. They

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faced the pain and all of it’s horror and they brought it as it is into the presence

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of God. That connects the soul to God. Even the soul in agony to God.

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Out of the depths I cry to you, oh Lord! This is prayer ascending

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from a soul in turmoil. It is authentic, it is real.

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I asked a lady who was bereaved not so long ago how she was doing and she said,

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God, it just hurts so much. And the way she said it, I sensed that she thought that was

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a failure of faith. I actually thought it was refreshingly honest. See, if you deny

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the pain, you can’t bring it to God, and you then shut off one of the greatest opportunities

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to discover His grace. Where did we get the idea that pain isn’t quite so painful if you

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are a Christian? If I hit my thumb with a hammer, it hurts as much as it hurts the unbeliever,

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did you know that? And when a Christian’s soul is in the dead — if you didn’t know

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that, try it by the way. When a Christian’s soul is in the depth of sorrow, the pain can

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seem overwhelming to the Christian soul. And it is no part of Christian faith to deny that.

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We distance ourselves if we do from Jesus, who said in the garden, My soul is overwhelmed

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with sorrow — he said. Out of the depths, I cry to you, O Lord. What do you do when

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you cry out to God from the depths, when you find yourself in that dark night of the soul?

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What are you to do? And what the Psalmist says to us here in verse 5, one word, wait,

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wait. I wait for the Lord, he says, my soul waits. This is marvelous. This is new ground,

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isn’t it? No, no smart answers, no trite phrases, no patronizing advice. No exhortations to

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pull yourself together. Just a simple decision, and a steady commitment to wait. That wasn’t

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in the Bible. I would never have written that. You would never have thought of that, would

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you? Wait. In our instant culture where we want an answer to everything within the moment,

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this is one of the hardest things for us to do. It’s also one, of course, of the most

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important disciplines for us to learn. The psalmist knew that when you are in deep pain,

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there are no quick answers. This man prays, out of the depths I call to you, O Lord. He

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continues, he says, to fill his mind with the Word of God. He lifts his pain to God.

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He fills his mind with the Word of God and beyond that he waits. He refuses to pretend

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that all is well before a solution has come. Here I am in the depths. My inner being is

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in pain. I will not deny the pain, I will not pretend

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with sleek phrases that all is well. Here is what I will do. I will wait for the Lord.

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Now think about it, waiting is one of the most beautiful and profound expressions of

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love. You ever been in a hospital for an operation and when you came around there was someone

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sitting by the bed just waiting? Beautiful expression of love.

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When we made our move to this country 6 years ago, arriving at O’Here, we had to go through

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the immigration procedure, which seemed to take forever. It actually took about two hours

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after the plane landed. Then finally after going through all of this fingerprinting process

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and all of the rest of it, we were able to collect our luggage and to come out into the

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and I will never forget seeing more than a dozen people from this congregation with banners

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smiling and cheering. I remember the faces still. They’d been waiting. It’s a wonderful

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expression of love! Actually that occurs to me there were probably another dozen who gave

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up an hour previously and went home and if you did, don’t feel bad about that! I don’t

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blame you at all! But waiting! We couldn’t believe it, we’d been so long! It’s a beautiful

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expression of love. Now the length of time you’re prepared to wait is really an expression

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of the value that you place on the person you’re waiting for. I had to get permission

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to tell you this today, but I waited two years for the lady who is now my wife. Oh! Is that

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beautiful? She grabbed my heart the first moment I saw her. The problem was she had

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the same effect on several others. And I was way, way too slow! So I had to wait, and hope!

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But the waiting was an expression of love. David says, I will wait for the Lord. Isn’t

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this the question — how long would you wait for God? The length of the waiting is

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the greatest expression of the value you place on the one you are waiting for. This is worship

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when David says this. There isn’t a greater expression of love in all the world. God,

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your Face seems hidden from me, I find myself in the darkness, I don’t know what you’re

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doing, but I will wait for you. And then notice what he says because it’s not only waiting,

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his waiting is sustained by hope. My soul waits for the Lord more than watchmen wait

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for morning. Picture that miserable old night watchman and he’s parading around the area

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that he’s securing and it’s a long, long night and it’s cold and he’s looking at his watch

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and, oh dear, when’s the dawn going to come. The one thing sustains him is that however

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dark and long this night is, the dawn will surely come and he knows it.

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And that’s how I look for God, he says, that’s how I wait for the Lord, not with some sense

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of despair, some sense of hopelessness, but with the deep conviction of mind and heart

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that at some point, God will come through for me. And when he does, I will be right

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here waiting for him. Don’t deny the pain.

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Wait for the Lord.

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You’re listening to Open the Bible with Pastor Colin Smith, and a message called

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Trusting in the Darkness. If you tuned in later, don’t forget you can catch up, or

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go back and listen again online at our website openthebible.org.uk. We’re in Psalm 130,

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so I hope you’ll stay with us for the rest of the program. Back to the message now. Here’s

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Colin

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the third and last thing, this morning.

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You will not be disappointed. About a year after we were married, I decided to take Karen

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for a day at the cricket in England. Now it’s a wonderful game, and I promise you

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that there is nothing more glorious than an English summer’s day, watching the cricket

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cricket with your lunch packed and spread out before you. It is just a little taste

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of heaven itself, I promise you. Well, we had planned a day to see England

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against the West Indies in Birmingham, which is about 100 miles from our home in London.

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Cricket begins at 11 in the morning and continues until six in the evening. You get good value

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for your ticket. And we traveled to Birmingham, and as we arrived we noticed that the clouds

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were gathering. And sure enough, just before 11, the heavens opened, and we were rushing

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for cover from the rain. But, of course, they said it would only be a shower. In England

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you should take that kind of statement with a pinch of salt. Well, we watched the water

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hogs soak up water from the grass for four hours. And then the skies began to clear.

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And, sure enough, we were wonderfully rewarded because, at four o’clock, the game began and

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continued for twenty-five minutes until the rain came again and play was abandoned for

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the day. At the end, as we left, Karen said to me,

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it wasn’t worth it. It was difficult to find an answer.

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We should have scrapped the tickets and gone and done something else.

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Now, here’s the bottom-line question. We gotta face it if we’re going to be honest

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here. Is it worth waiting on God when you’re in

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the depth of sorrow? What will come out of waiting from God?

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For there is a temptation that comes to the human soul, as it were, to tear up our tickets,

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cut our losses, and get on with something else. Is all this as I go through the darkness

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so that God may salvage some little scrap of blessing out of a mountain of pain, like

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an uneventful twenty-five minutes of play on a rain-soaked day? I need to know the answer

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to that question if I am to be sustained in my waiting on God in the darkness.

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So look at what he says in verse 7.

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Oh Israel, put your hope in the Lord, for with the Lord is unfailing love and

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with him is full redemption. Literally the word there, full, is

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plentiful, plentiful redemption, abundant redemption.

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Redemption means simply what God will bring out of the pain and brokenness that afflicts

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your soul in the darkness, and what God will bring out of it, the Psalmist says will be

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plentiful, not just enough. Plentiful.

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Peter talks about the same thing in the New Testament when he talks about the grief that

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you will experience in all kinds of trials, he says. And in the furnace of these trials,

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what will happen is this – your faith will be proved genuine and then when Jesus Christ

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is revealed, it will rebound to the praise and to the glory and to the honor of God.

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See, we see all of our experience wrapped up in a day, a week, a month or a year. We

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look at such a short timeframe that it is difficult for us to imagine how anything can

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come out of the darkness that would be greater than the pain that we have experienced in

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but God is looking at a bigger picture.

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Your whole body and soul will be redeemed. You are going to be brought into the presence

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of God and made like Him. This whole sorry fallen creation in which we live our lives

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is going to be redeemed and is going to be renewed, and what God will bring out of this

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suffering world will be more than we could ever begin to imagine or our minds could comprehend.

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What God will bring out of your darkness – your suffering in particular – will be out of

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scale so as to diminish what to you now is so overwhelmingly large. That is beyond what

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at this point we can grasp or what we can perceive, but this is the promise of God.

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When God redeems, it will not be enough, it will be plentiful. And when you see what God

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has redeemed in heaven, and when you see your part in it, you will say, I’m so glad there

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I waited for the Lord. And if you want evidence of that, then just look at Jesus. My soul

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is overwhelmed with sorrow, He said in the Garden of Gethsemane. And then they came to

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arrest Him and He said, this is your hour where darkness reigns. You see He didn’t deny

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the darkness. Then He moves deeper and deeper into the darkness and the anguish of His own

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soul. His friends desert Him, the sin of the world is laid upon him, darkness covers the

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land and then he cannot even feel the presence of his Father. And if you had been standing

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there at the foot of Calvary and someone had asked you, what good can God bring out of

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this that is greater than the darkness He experiences, you would have been stuck for

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an answer. So what does he do? He waits, he hopes, he trusts. Father, into Your hand I

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commit my spirit.’ They took down his body. On the third day the father raises him up

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and redemption streams to the whole world.

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So come with me one last time into the board room of the soul. The members of the board

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are in somber mood as they reflect on the deep darkness in which they find themselves,

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but now the Spirit of God comes right into the board room and takes that chair that God

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has set in every soul that will receive his presence. I know the pain of this soul, the

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spirit says, mind I know all your questions. You believe God knows all your questions?

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Heart I feel all your pain. Conscience I know all your burdens. Imagination I know all

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your fears. Memory I know all your regrets. Will I know that you feel spent. And I want

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you to know says the spirit of God I have not come as a visitor. I have come to stay

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so that we may work through this darkness together. Mind I know all your worries. Thou

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s a great deal that you don t know and can t know but I want you to focus now on what

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you do know. So we can help the other members of the board. Mind straightens himself in

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his chair and then holds his head and his hands as he tries to focus. Well all I know

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right now is that we were in great darkness says mind. That s a good start. God I know

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the whole soul can agree on that says the spirit. Now what else do we know? Can we agree

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that God is with us? No we can t says heart because I can t feel him. Yes but that s not

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the issue says conscience. Remember heart you can t feel anything except the pain. It

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s overwhelmed you and obliterated all else. The question is not can you feel His presence

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the question is simply is he here. I m ready to believe He s here says memory. We knew

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Him here before why should the darkness make us doubt His presence now? Yes says imagination

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like the sun that s always there but sometimes hidden behind a cloud hidden for our view

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only for a time but still there as much as before. We are in the darkness then but God

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is with us. Can we also agree that God will bring us through, when? When? God will bring

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us through, he says heart painfully, I don’t know how much longer I can stand this. We

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not talking time scales, says Will. The question is simply whether we choose to believe that

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God will bring us through and the only alternative is to remain in the darkness. No one else

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can bring us out. I move, says Will, that we affirm as the position of this soul that

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we are in the darkness, that God is with us and that God will bring us through. Second,

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says Mind, with God darkness is never the final word. Let’s look to see his full

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redemption. The motion was carried unanimously.

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I think many of us can relate to this message, if we’re, if we’ve experienced the dark

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night of the soul, those times when you can’t make sense of what’s going on in your life

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and you have no sense of God’s presence. How do you deal with that? Today’s message,

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trusting in the darkness, I think helps us to see how sometimes we just need to wait

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on the Lord.

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trusting in the darkness. If you’ve missed any of the message, if you tuned in late,

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something you’ve been considering doing, we have an offer for you this month to say

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thank you for your support. If you are able to set up a new payment to the work of Open

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the Bible, in the amount of £5 per month or more. This month we’d love to thank you

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by sending you pastor Colin’s new book, Flying Through the Bible. Colin, why did you use

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the flying metaphor to describe this book?

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Well, suppose you were making a visit to the Grand Canyon and exploring it for the first

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time. I mean, I guess you could hike down and you’d get a sense of the depth of the

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canyon, you could drive around the rim you’d get a sense of the length of it, but perhaps

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the best way to get an overall sense of the vastness and beauty of the Grand Canyon would

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be to take a flight over it. Now, when it comes to the Bible, to get a high-altitude

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overview of what the Bible’s story is all about seems to me to be the best place to

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begin. The Bible really is one story, it begins in a garden, it ends in a city, and all the

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through it’s about the Lord Jesus Christ. And Fly Through the Bible is kind of cookies

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on the bottom shelf, to change the analogy, it gives an overall picture, an introduction

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to the scripture that I hope will help and encourage people to want to explore more

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when they get on the ground.

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Well we’d love to send you a free copy of Colin’s book, Fly Through the Bible, to say

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thank you for setting up a new donation to the work of Open the Bible this month in the

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amount of £5 per month or more. Full details of this offer are on our website.

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OpenTheBible.org.uk

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For Pastor Colin Smith and Open the Bible, I’m David Pick, and I hope you’ll come and

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join us again soon.

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